I stepped down from a ministry I had started and led in my church for over 6 years. It was a privilege to lead in that capacity. However, I realized that the ministry consumed much of my life. When I stopped leading I didn’t anticipate how big of a gap I would find in my life now that I wasn’t making phone calls, networking, leading, planning, and mentoring; all while being a wife, mother, and part time employee. I hadn’t realized how much work it took to run this ministry. I just did it because it needed to be done.
This made me think about other things. In the 6 years of leading this ministry I lost both of my parents, graduated from college, and started a speaking ministry.
I had chosen to step down from this ministry in order to pursue another calling, but I felt like the Lord wasn’t calling me into another ministry right away; but back to my first and most important ministry, my husband, children and family. I also felt He has been calling me into a time of healing from grief. Grief is tough. It has been 6 years since my father passed, 3 years since mom passed, and only 3 weeks since my step-father has passed. In this time, I have asked God to give me rest and help me deal with the stuff that needs healing; grief being one of them.
I have been busy getting to know my husband again, and my children. My oldest is a freshmen in high school who plays sports and has a more active social life than I do. I now ask myself how did I ever have time to lead a ministry because I seem to have no life right now. But, I am thankful because it is an amazing journey.
I am learning that as a leader you must take time away to rest. A good leader knows that rest is important. While I would like to say I am great at this, I don’t always take the needed time. I am learning to see that when God closes one door, He maybe telling me to rest for a moment because resting is good for me until He is ready to open the next door.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
I am still doing mission work, speaking, and mentoring but not so much that I forget to rest and heal. I am also praying through this next season of life that I am feeling called to.
I am thankful that the Lord stresses the importance to take time to rest in Him. In all of this healing and resting the Lord has and always will be faithful. He is my complete rest. The verse I leave you with is this:
Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him…